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2003-08-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

is been very long since i last blog...kind off busy these few days...studying n studying...the stress level in me had seem to reach the peak...nva had i felt so stress before...not even during my "O" days.anyway had to thanks all my fren out dere for their cont encouragement these few weeks...dun worry guys wun let u all down...will strive hard n harder for the best...act kinda scared also,prelim is on the 26 Aug...wtf....onli 2 weeks more....really feel lk crying for help alrdy!!!argh!!!
dun really noe if i can do well...hope to get an ave of C for my A sub...and of cuz hopefully can pass GP...haha...seem lk cracking a joke...pass GP??oh man....tink i really take a miracle for this dream to come true...haha...
yar forget to wish singapore happy 38th bdae....haha...saw fishbone wishing s'pore happy bdae on her blog...so i musn't loss to her...haha...
k guys gtg...studying time again...btw tink wun come online for these few weeks...take care guys

to everyone taking prelim:all the best guys!!study hard...
to grace:brother how u le?dun tink too much...rem no matter wad still haf frens ard u...(lk me...keke)

2003-07-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

hi guys....quite long nva blog alrdy...cuz kinda busy these few days...haiz...very stress...everyday tell myself to start my revision but till today haven really study much...jus phy making sum progress...tink i will flop my prelim...jus hope my A can do well...haiz...saga is losing $...tonite will be saga finale match...haha.man u vs juventus...thou i nva bet but really hope all my brother will win~!hehe....tink my hair is getting very long alrdy...this few days cnt really style my hair...aaron ask me to buy tt sucky GASTBY solid wax....the grey col wax....guys if u are thinking of buying tt better dun....haha...the wax jus sux!prefer my mat look GASTBY wax....still dunno how long to go b4 i can finish it....haha...tink i will jus dump it at a corner and go n buy back the mat look wax...haha...
chat wif her last nite online for quite long...hehe...very happy....act wana go geylang buy touhua for her...but she reject my offer...so sad...really feel lk doing smth for her...haiz...and haf no idea of wad to do...act been telling myself to gif up on her...but jus cnt....dun even noe why am i falling deeper n deeper for her....wt seen to be jus a memory for me...these few days i have really stop thinking abt her...kinda feel quite happy cuz after so long i have finally fan xia le....
went to mit meiyi last nite...cuz she was damn sad....dun wana elaborate why she was sad...haha....went dwn to her hse dere to mit her...den her hp low batt...sucks man...i was lk an idiot walking ard finding her...onli to find her at a park we often visit...she was damn sad...crying lk mad....dunno how to console her..so jus tok cock n be a clown....haha...reach hm at 530 in the morning...slept for a few min den went off to sch....damn tired now...tink i will go slp now guys....tata....

2003-07-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

gd morning everyone...so freaking tired now!went bbq yest at Mayspring...was so fun...the food was great!didn't really bbq but is yuzhong n guys helping me to grill those food...haha...but without my help tink the fire will nva start...haha...help to set the fire wif chengyao and jinming...was damn fun setting the fire....went to buy a bottle of baccardi....share wif some guys from my class....haha....jinming was lk drunk...so funny...and not forgetting the ever cute BOBO~!!haha.jinming's dog.....so cute...but guess she i tired alrdy....was motionless toward the end of the bbq...a different BOBO from wad she is usually lk...so hyper-active...haha...jus lk her master.tink last nite i drank damn alot....almost half the bottle.....mixed it wif 7-up and orange juice...haha....jiaen even said i can be a bartender next time...cuz the mixture was great!!grace came too...hehe...brother really long time no see you...feel great catching up wif u...hey hey dun fag too much also k?haha....nowadays i have been fagging damn little too...try to quit wif me kk?tink grace look more suai now...wif her short hair....took foto wif grace and marg...tink we all miss grace alot....she was jus lk our special guest....yest bbq was really a success....was so fun....haha....tink tt maybe the last time s55 will be having such a great gathering....tink the next time will be after A le....really feel great been in this fun class...s55 rulez~!
friday~ 25/07
haiz...told her abt it alrdy...tink she was dman shock also...had really been pondering over whether to tell her abt it....aaron told me there is nth to lose...cuz i noe she wun accept me....jus say it out n let her noe...rather den let this feeling get stuck inside my heart.....so jus decided to pick the couarge n tell her,"the gal is u..."...haha...she was lk erm...ar..huh...haha...tink tt news really "killed" her....dunno how she feel....but act i feel very relieve after telling her....but i'm not sure wad will happen in the future...will she avoid me?or will she feel awkward toking to me?jus hope this wun cause misery for her...decided to go n luk for the choker for her....but damn it...travel from queensway to Jp to buy it....onli to noe tt onli 2 places in s'pore sell tt type of choker....tt is heeren n Jp..the salesman at JP told me tt the shop had stop manufacturing tt type of choker...so went heeren to find....n the salesgirl told me to go JP....argh...tt means....the choker cnt be found alrdy....i was so f****** sad...really feel lk getting smth for her...haiz...why am i foreva suay....???

to 02s55:guys!study hard for prelim n A...s55 is really a great class...enjoy being in the class...hehe...all the best!
to grace:brother...thank for coming for the bbq....catch up wif u next time round k?all the best for u n yr xx...haha!
to the gal:i dunno how u feel rite now...but if u are seeing this...i really wana tell u everything i said for the past few days are true...my feeling for u i true....u r really sumone special to me...512....

~To you,
my mind will always stray.
And in my dreams,
your eyes beckon dolefully.
In truth,
you find you cannot stay.
You look,
but not for me,
in dreams of lovers,
by the sea.
Somwhere I am set afloat,
no sight of land.
No hope, of embrace,
by my sweet long passed on.
Somewhere waves crash,
and I wait for you,
to look for me again.
To dream of my eyes,
beckoning you. ~

2003-07-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

feel so tired now...went to to teach vance tuition today...and he nva do the hw which i assigned to him last wk..>!#@$#! so angry...now den i noe is not easy being a teacher...haiz...so to all my fren out dere who wana be a teacher next time,tink twice k?haha....went hm on 174 and the bloody bus was so packed...i could hardly breathe....not to say finding a sit...no stood thru'out the whole damn journey....saw a sit and was so happy...onli to see a old lady beside me...had no choice but to offer her the sit instead...haha...saw wilson at tohyi den went hm wif him....
today in sch was so shiok...i was jus lk a celebrity nowaday....everyone was so happy to see me esp the SAGA member...haha...cuz i was their "lucky star"...help them won alot of $ these few days....haiz...very tempted to bet...but cnt la...prm myself nt to gamble...but anyway i cnt...cuz they will kill me...they jus used me as their "secret weapon" to bet on the opp team so tt they can win...cuz i'm 4eva suay..as wadeva team i bet on...the opp will win...haha...tt why they call me the "cai sheng ye of SAGA"....
nva regret gg for my first chapel of the year today...saw her while walking into hall for chapel...was so happy...for the past few days i didn't get to see her so was lk a zombie in sch....but the sight of her really make me so happy and today...tink all of u are rite la...is not a crush...haiz...i have fallen for her....dunno whether is a gd sign or a bad omen but wadeva it is,this a fact and i cnt change it...jus let nature take its course...she is rite...if we are fated we will be together...tt was wad she told me yest...haha...but she dunno i lk her...she jus noe i lk a gal...but dunno is her...shld i tell her?i really feel lk telling her but i'm afraid tt after i tell her everything will change...cuz i noe she wun fall for me...|uv is really so painful....guys my life is in a mess again...i have fall in luv again...will this be a new chapter of joy?or would it be another chapter of sorrows and pains again?thru'out my 18 years of life,i have nva had a smooth path in love before....every single chapters i went thru were all full of sorrows...and every single chapter onli end wif pain...wondering how will this chap end.....
~ You know you truly love someone when everyday you meet is like the first time you fall in love~

2003-07-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

*argh* actually wana start my revision today but still feel lk slacking...so perhap will postpone it to tml..haha..went swimming jus now wif jinming at sig park....so shiok!the sun was okie...not so warm and the water was great!swam for damn long den went sauna...haha...before heading to the jacuzzi pool...haha..both of us feel lk we are really those rich guys out dere who really know how to enjoy life!!anyway jinming yr chest muscle is really damn big...haha..dun worry guys i not gay la...jus find his muscle really damn great...haha...
*fan*fan*fan* shld i tell her??kaoz...guys out dere save me...is it a crush?it seem lk i am thinking of her more often nowaday...esp in college...i'm dying to see her!!!haiz..but didn't get to see her today...so the whole day i was lk a zombie in sch...so sorry guys...haha...dun really noe will she be lucky to know i lk her...haha...but i will do my best to make the feel lucky..haha..kinda bhb ritE?wad shld i do?
k la...dun really noe wad shld i do...tink will jus let nature take it's course......

~I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.~
To SAGA:all the best for today match!!hehe hope u all will win...dun forget this cai shen ye here hor...haha...

2003-07-20T13:33:00.000+08:00

wah damn tired now...jus woke up...so a morning greeting to everybody out dere(ops it is noon alrdy...haha)....last nite was terrible...went tt stupid combine jc party at embassy...claudia was one of the organiser....tt party sucks!!#@%@#%! prm myself yest is gona be my last nite out...so went wif my SAGA gang...embassy wad damn crowded...paid $21 for free flow...but guess how many glass i drank?3 glasses of housepour!!damn pathetic rite...still rem the last party i went at chinablack..thou it was $25 i drank nearly 30 glasses...see the diff??the bar counter was damn packed...the dance flr was damn crowded...and dere are so few sits ard...to make it worst...dere is nt even a place for u to stand....so had to squeeze to a corner wif edgar n yaling...
gave up getting the drinks as we knew it is really impossible to get the drinks..the bartender was a ass....damn slow!thus we hit the dance flr...edgar n yaling was so damn int in dancing wif gals...as for me u guys noe la...i dun lk dancing wif gals...so jus dance alone...i was "molested" by so many ppl....all touching me here n dere..so i was damn dulan...den ask dem to lv...haiz...poor chin shin can't get in..cuz when i went out at 11+...so many ppl was still outside tring to get in..haha..when to buy the apple and aloe vera drink...thot it will be $1+...but damn it..it cost $3.60..kaoz!was the heck!@$#$^@
haiz..tink tt will be the last party i will go...cj was rite..party sucks...waste money and waste time...i did rather find a chill-out-bar sit down n relax..thou it will cost me...haiz..find myself lk a fool yest...kaoz..anyway guys gtg...tata..

2003-07-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

jus came back home...miss my "Holland Vill" argh....tink jingjing really very cute...die le...fall in love wif her alrdy...haha..she reminds me of her....haha...she also very blur and cute...argh...wad am i thinking...
met ah lan jus now to teach her Amath...burden...ite still have to study Amath..tink today did quite a great job...cuz finally she understand how to do those qn alrdy...haha...of cuz la...i am a tutor after all wad...(self praise is no praise..*grinz*)
these few days i seem to fell in love with the song "I'm crazy for this girl" by Evan n Jaron...quite an old song anyway...but nevertheless is still a very nice song...so am i really crazy over heR??I'm still pondering over the answer to this question...k guys end my entry for today here....and here is the song:

"I'm Crazy For This Girl"

She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Chorus:
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Chorus

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Chorus 2x

2003-07-15T16:04:00.000+08:00

today is tuesday so happy...cuz sch dismiss at 1210...damn tired now..slept at abt 3am last nite...shi mian again...haiz...today told Mr Chay abt my condition and he told me i might go to PES E...haiz..so sian...act i not really worry abt my health condition now...kinda hack care alrdy..if really will die den die lor...all this are fated...can't blame anybody....haiz...jus count it on my bad luck la...foreva suay...
dunno why these few days can't concentrate on wadeva i do...i have been thinking abt whether my feeling for her is jus a crush or wad...but no matter i haf decided not to go for her...u guys might come and scold me again...but i no we two are impossible to be together...she will nva lk me...maybe it's true...wt has changed my life totally...now i haf lost all my confidence...i am jus a loser who does not dare to go after a gal i lk....i really so afraid of being get hurt again....love has alrdy become a phobia to me...

2003-07-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

finally got to watch twin effects today....but is quit a disappointment..haha..quite funny la but plot not really that good...the special effects are very good...and the vampire are damn cool~!!poor ekin got kill by Gillian in the end...haiz...Charlene Choi is beri cute~!!haha...watched wif jc jus now at lido...act wana study at holland vill but i jus can't settle down and study...so left after she finish her assignment..after the show went KAP for dinner...saw the pjc gal n tt #@$!%@ butch...haha..dun lk her...dunno why her face so puke can find such a gd looking stead...omg..
haiz...feeling damn fan now...still asking myself this qn for 3 days alrdy..."do i lk her??"....i can't accept the fact tt i lk her although everyone ard me said i lk her...is the first time in my life i'm ensure abt my feeling toward a gal....can't deny i do find her a very nice gal....haiz...but anyway wad is the use even if i know the ansWER?we two belong to two different world....it is impossible for us to be together...she wun lk me anyway...haiz...i'm jus a loser in love....
Is true that after wt i haf changed...and is a drastic change in me...she really changed my whole life...now my life is really in a mess...dunno what to look forward to...sometime i really miss the old JIMMY....

~A crush is not just a crush
When the mere thought of you
Could brighten up even the worst day.
A crush is not just a crush
When I feel your presence next to me
And I can not help but look away.
A crush is not just a crush
When you simply glancing at me
Puts a tremendous smile on my face.
A crush is not just a crush
When just by you waving hello
Makes my heart beat at an unusual pace.
A crush is not just a crush
When just by eating lunch with you
My appetite seems to quickly disappear.
A crush is not just a crush
When my hands begin to tremble
The instant you are near.
A crush is not just a crush
When being so nervous around you
Limits our conversation to "Hi's" and "Bye's".
A crush is not just a crush
When while sitting in class
All I do is daydream about you and let out several sighs.
A crush is not just a crush
When the thought of there never being an "us"
Is slowly tearing me apart.
A crush is not just a crush
When I think of you not liking me
And it's truly breaking my tender heart.~

2003-07-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

hi guys...argh super tired...jus came hm..decided not to watch the 9pm show..cuz i recorded it..gona watch it ltr or tml...went play bball den went lot1 to buy smth...argh...bball kills me totally!sian...nth to do...no new songs to dl...hey guys any nice rnb intro??haha..nowadays dunno why started loving rnb...techno days are over for me...finally...so cj dun suan me anymore ar...
jus now after sch went queensway wif chin shin,godfrey n edgar.....saw a new town gal...she beri cute and sweet looking...dunno why she draw my attention at once...is been so long i ever have such a feeling...haha...hope is not love at first sight...i dun wana brk my own prm...but godfrey wana noe her...so cs n i went forward and got her contact....her name is angela...such a sweet name...but guys guess how old is she??argh...14 onli!!!so young...haha...forget abt it la godfrey...too young for u...haha...act jus now i did msg her....she got lots of qn...but from the way she tok i can sense tt she is beri ke ai...haha...but abit kiddish also...haha...haiz...i grow old le la...so must control myself...dun fall for her...haha..but dun mind knowing another new fren lor..haha
k guys gtg le...tink is bedtime for me now...haha...nite~!

to BaBy:u wan mit me this sat?i ask two fren along can?

~Dream what you want to dream,go where you want to go,be what you want to be,because you only have one life to live and one chance to do all the things you want to do~

2003-07-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey guys...today was a sad day for me...haizzzz...so disappointed wif my math result...got 71...although it might sound great but it is not wad i wan....cuz the paper was damn easy..why am i so carelesS??haiz...dun understand...and my phy too!!study so hard and this is wad i get...haiz...started giving prv tut to a fren today...$150 per mth...haha...easy cash ritE?jus one hr for a session and twice a week...now i am rich le..so went monsoon and have my hair cut jus now..not bad...tt stylist ken did quite a gd job...tml can go see mr muthu and show off my new hair style...haha..act wana shave off my layer...but abit she bu de...haha
haiz..tink is time to start serious work from tml onward...today i shall jus slack and relax...jus finish some undone tut from last term...term 3 le...less den 4mth to my A....and 8 weeks more to my prelim..kinda scare...really hope i can do well....to all saints out there..work hard k??must do well....haha..UP AND ON~!haha
to cj:wish u a speedy recovery...haha..work hard too!!believe u can make a name out of yrself in TP~!haha
to wilson:u too...work hard hor..dun slack slack slack...

2003-07-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

hey guys...today is a boring sunday...went town to mit my fren...but damn dulan wif them cuz they beri undecisive abt where to go...so i headed home..act wana meet chin shin n gang for steamboat at marina...but kinda broke alrdy so decided to stay at hm instead....the 730 channel 8 show was damn stupid!!haiz...dunno why jus feel beri piss off today...tink i wasted my whole weekend....
guys dunno why but decided to quit smoking...hopefully i can...haha...cuz fag price inc again~!!now is going at $4.30 for a marlboro small...kaoz...!still rem when i first started it was onli $2.50....f*** the govt!!tink they jus wana earn more....if they really wana stop us from smoking must as well dun sell fag ritE?haiz...tink i really can't afford to smoke alrdy...know it will be damn hard...but better quit now...tink the price will raise till $6....
k guys tink gtg le...to all smokers:lets quit together!!haha

2003-07-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

today is her bdae...HAPPY BIRTHDAY XX!haha...really thank God for bringing this cute little girl to earth 17 year ago...as i said she is the most perfect gal i ever seen....so must thank Him again for creating such a perfect girl....haha..sounded holy riTE?really have alot of things to tell u....times really flies...a few mth ago i was still thinking of wad to do for u during yr bdae...but i suppose it is of no use now alrdy....believe he will give u a memorable bdae...dun even noe whether i will lk the cranes i made....act i made 512 for u....but now onli gif u 200 cranes...belive u shld noe why i decided to gif u 200 onli instead of 512....i dun wana come between the two of u....jus wana let u go n persue yr own happinese...as for me...i dun really noe wad is happinese alrdy...perhap to see u happy is my onli happinese....really haf alot of words to tell u...but jus can't say it out...
happy birthday again....and may all yr dream come true....

2003-07-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

hi guys...didn't slp much jus now..dunno why can't slp despite the nice weather today which is so good for a nice n long slp...went to NOL building jus now cuz my brother working OT so me been a gd brother bought some food n pass it to him..cuz i noe he will forget to go n eat...haha....came back hm jus in time to catch my nine o'clock show...tink the lexuan beri ke lian...poor thing...haha
haiz...2 hrs more to her bdae...tml gg down to lakeside to pass her those cranes...i really haf alot of things to tell her..act wana gave her a letter but after much consideration i decided to drop this thought....haiz...tink she will enjoy her bdae tml...really hope edgar can give her the most memorable bdae...(jus lk how she gif me the most memorable bdae of my life)
dun even noe whether she will lk those cranes i made but jus hope she will have a nice bdae tml...
k guys ending my entry for today...haiz...tink tonite i will haf a sleepless nite again....

2003-07-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

hey guys finally my exam is over!!!!!so happy and relieve...anyway i jus reach hm onli....went club3 wif yaling,chin shin n godfrey....n saw guowei wif his gf dere...haha...brother u really haf gd taste!!!yr gf very chio...haha...saw melody dere also...haha..so heng saw so many ex sch mate....yest 3 was beri boring...nobody hit the dance floor....so yaling n i went first...haha..and after tt so many ppl join in...so shiok..when on stage for "walking in the sun" wif guowei,his gf and yaling...haha...damn shiok...dance thur'out the nite without.....tink yaling damn funny last nite...haha...
guys, haf u ever heard of a guy of clubbing and know another guy?dun luff but i really make fren wif a thai guy....(dun worry he is not a gay...)he borrow lighter from me den we started chatting and dance together...tink he damn cute..hope to see him ard at three again...drank alot last nite wif tt guy...argh..forgot his name..cuz is a thai name...so can't recall...haha
after 3 we went for supper and headed back to bkt timah...haha..godfrey told his mum he not gg hm...so i accompany him rot at tohyi...den we drag ourself to sig park and slept at the sofa chair...so shiok...den went his hse for breakfast before heading hm...argh...so tired now..tink will go slp alrdy...haha...tata ppl~!

to cj:brother how is yr leg...take care leh...dun walk too much la...ahbo ltr no leg la..haha...
to wilson:haha gif up on _fIsHboNe alrdy?keke
to chin shin,yaling and godfrey:guys enjoy my nite out wif u all...sat go 3 again la...steady?

2003-07-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

hey guys...as usual my exam stuff again..haha...today phy was okie...but jus tink the time given is not enuff...so ended up not able to finish all the qn....wonder why they set such a long paper...haiz...tink shld be able to pass...but my target of a B is not within reach alrdy...haiz..tink shld be either a C or a D...so sad...tml is my last paper!!!yeah...so guys if u all wana ask me out...tml onward i will be damn free!!haha having such a long weekend...dunno when is youth day...hopefully is monday..haha..den i can haf a 5 days weekend~!tink tml shld be gg clubbing wif my chin shin and gangs...haha...chin shin shiok la...today exam finish le...:P
haiz...yest entry was a curse!!!"but anyway hope u study until forget to take care of yrself...cuz bdae coming...dun be sick on yr bdae kk?" this is the curse i am toking abt...cuz she is sick!!!argh...me n my stupid mouth again..foreva suay...she is down wif fever...haiz...hope she will get well soon...tink edgar will take gd care of her one...anyway is none of my business... haiz....so really hope u will take care of yrself..and get well before yr bdae...
k guys ending my entry for the day...(3 days more to her bdae...)

2003-07-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

hi guys...feeling very happy rite now...cuz MATH WAS EASY!!!haha...first time i had no prob answering all the qn...tink an A is within hope,provided i dun made careless mistake...didn't really study much for math cuz i expect myself to flop it....but nva will i noe the paper was so easy...haha...finish the 2hr paper in less den 1 hr 30min...feel so proud...but tml will be my greatest fear...PHY!!!argh...hate phy...cuz dun really understand wad the hell phy is all abt...tink today i'll jus memorise all the stuffs...haiz...shld not haf take phy...:P
anyway 4 days more to her bdae....dunno why i feel nth now..is it bcuz i haf alrdy fan xia le?i duno it myself...but had made up my mind to pass it to her on sat...maybe go lakeside n find her...is been beri long since i went to find her..the last time was on 29/03 when i went down to pass her the cd i burn for her...dun even noe she still listen to the cd...haiz...still rem clearly the path we walk together while sending her hm....everytime i haf a stupid wish and tt is i hope the path will be longer...so i can haf more time wif her...haha..crazy guy ritE??dunno how yr exam gg...but anyway hope u study until forget to take care of yrself...cuz bdae coming...dun be sick on yr bdae kk?haha...
k guys ending my entry for today...gg off to study phy alrdy...tata guys

to cj:how was orientation??fun??really wana see yr hair...haha
to godfrey:brother dun worry u wun fail yr math eh...haf confidence in u...cont study hard..rem wad u told me??u wana pass yr chem ar...haha...
to princess:sorry korkor this few days exam nva so kinda busy...catch up wif u next time kk?anyway why no tag... -_-

2003-06-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

hey hey wad happen to my blog???argh why can't load my blog page...sian...wad happen!!!haiz...today GP sucks!!out of the 12 essays qn i can't even find one which i am able to write well...so ended up writing qn 2 "how important are the institutions of marriage and family to the development of a country"....so ended up anyhow writing it...haha...paper two was as usual gone case type...(ops...sorry cj shld not mention gone case...haha)....AQ was tough...qns were tough too...but luckliy summary was kinda easy...haha...
tml is math...hopefully can pass..tink statisitic is quite tough...and mr lee still dare to say it's the easiet branch of maths... :P
k guys gona study alrdy...tata....

to sarah:where u go?so long no online...last time u gave me yr blog site ma...so link lor...haha...anyway sch reopen today...fun?
to diana:thank alot~!!u enjoy yr par tor too...haha
to cj:thank for yr wishes!
to shuqi:poor thing tml got econ n math...haha...all the best...

2003-06-29T12:29:00.000+08:00

hey guys....jus woke up not long ago...haiz...less den 24hr to my exam..and less den 24 hr to sch reopen...haha..not really scared of the GP paper tml...cuz i'm 99.999999% sure i will fail...haha...but can't stop myself for being afraid of the math,phy and chem paper....haha...
set a target for myself as usual...chem A,phy B,math E....haha...kinda pathetic traget for math..hehe...but can't blame too..cuz i am the onli person who fail math in my class for bt1...haha..k guys gona study for my chem...maybe ltr study for GP...haha...cuz heard sq n marg said they wana study for Gp...so i join in the "fun" too..haha...

to wilson:sorry brother,no idea for poem now...haha...my mind is full of formula now...sorry..write it next time round...
to all saints:gd luck for BT2 n CT!!!!1

2003-06-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

hi guys..wah so sian...today study phy at mac wif cs n godfrey...study quite "alot" today...erm jus 1 chap...hehe...lame rite?but not as lame as godfrey...can't imagine why he is so lame...haha...tink he is the lamest person i see in my life...
came back for dinner den met wilson to fag...had a long tok wif him...and finally got my tag board up...haha...so happy!!thank wilson for helping me....treat u fag next time...k guys gtg n study le...tink tonite burning midnite oil again...anyway feel free to tag okie??

to wilson:okie tml will write a poem for u...haha
to cheng yao:thank for tagging...haha...

2003-06-28T12:25:00.000+08:00

jus came back from mac..ate a big breakfast meal..feeling so full now...last nite really had a dreamless nite...haha..feel so happy....it's been so long since i had such a nice slp....two more days left to my BT2...arGH~!!why holiday so fast end???didn't really enjoy myself this holiday except for the chinablack's party...tink tt is the onli happening event this holiday..haiz...so sian..why must study?hate to study....haiz...
anyway today gona study phy...haben really study phy yet....phy sucks...math sucks too...chem sucks too...haiz...everything sucks la!!!argh~!! going crazy...haha...k guys enjoy yr day!!

to sherwyn:why no reply my sms??:P
to edgar:study hard brother...all the best for yr BT2~! =)
to xx:all the best for yr CT...one week more to yr bdae...............

"Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies."

2003-06-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

feeling so exhausted rite now...spent the whole days revising my math...all i had been seeing this whole days is onli numbers n numbers...haiz..tink this time round math is kinda hard...still can't get really do alot of qn(esp those in tys)...haiz
when for a run in the evening n met godfrey at tohyi to fag....the 3 sticks of marlboro really relieve my stress!!haha...
haiz...tink gona take a rest now...maybe go ZzzZZzz or wad...ltr den study my phy..gona do tys qn again...haiz...(hopefully wun let me dream of her again...)

to cj n wilson:how is the new NE line??haha kinda boliao~ hor...sorry can't pei u two go...cuz exam coming...next friday den go out together la...(ya cj still rem next friday u said wana go zouk??)
to agnes:hey hey...sorry la...u are always my gd fren...i wun forget u...hehe...our frenship so special ritE??keke...all the best for yr coming exam...
to godfrey:hey brother study hard hor...dun everyday play game ar...dunno u will rem to see my blog anot...see le rem tell me nice anot hor...haha~!
to sq:hey hey...wad happen to yr blog...erm...i still can't load it...haha...anyway hope u had yr dinner alrdy...and dun slp too late... =)
to meiyi:brother sorry...i beri busy these few weeks...next thur my exam finish den go find u kk??sorry...sorry...fan xing i will miss u one..haha.....

2003-06-27T14:10:00.000+08:00

hey guys...sch is reopening soon..and my bt2 is drawing nearer...haiz...haben really finish studying...my math is in a mess...jus did sum tys qn...and i can't do...haiz...tink i gona fail my math again...now all my hope pin on chem onli..hoping to score my first ever A...haha
last nite was really damn bad....i slept beri late...can't slp....smoke alot last nite...until sq sms me.....tink wad she said is beri true...tink when i fan i smoke even more fan...it doesn't help at all...haha...sq thank alot!prm u i will cut down....hehe...u are really a great fren~!
to cj:dun bored la..sorry leh..i wana study can't go out with u..
to sherwyn:sorry brother yest not free...mit up next time kk?

"Everyone must go through a storm to get to a rainbow." ~that is wad zihui told me before...haiz..maybe is quite true...wad i when thru now is really a great storm....i dun noe when my rainbow will arrive....i dun dare to wish for it to arrive...jus hope this storm will be over as soon as possible...~

2003-06-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

hey guys gd morning(or shld i say gd noon??),jus woke up not long ago...had a long chat wif my dear brother grace(ops i mean sherwyn...haha) last nite...suddenly kinda miss her..haha...after tt study till beri late...act wana update my blog last nite but too tired to do so so when ZZzzzZZ.....i had a terrible dream....it's abt her again....haiz..when can i stop thinking of her...God save me pls...i dun wana tink of her,i dun wana miss her , i dun wana luv her anymore....all i wan is jus to forget her...but why can't i do tt???why am i still thinking of her,still missing her,still luving her,why can't i simply forget her...!!!am i such a loser,such a sucker or shld i say such a f*****????my mind is in a mess now....haiz...
gona meet marg and godfrey ltr at beauty world to study math...dun even noe whether i'm able to get all those formula into my head....k guys...enjoy yr day~!!
--A bRoKeN hEaRt--
I shake the thoughts of you
out of my mind
I don't know what's happening
Was this love so blind?
Why do I still dream of you?
Why do I still wish you were here?
Why do I still long to see you?
Why do I wish you were near?
I'm infatuated with you
But I want that feeling to end
I know you don't feel the same
I just want my heart to mend
I hide all these feelings from you
keep them locked up inside
I ask my friends for their help
At least I have in them to confide
I think I'm succeeding
I think this feeling is dying
I think this is working
I think my heart is crying
I don't know what to do
I don't want to think of you
My heart is empty right now
I just want to make it through
I don't care, I don't feel
With your life, just get goin'
Just forget about u
So I can end this poem...
...*sigh*...well..this is how i feel right now...i just wanted to express my feelings...that's all...

2003-06-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

when bkt batok driving centre this afternoon wif cj to book the BTT test date...it's on 16/07...yeah~!!!my dream of driving is drawing nearer....so guys pray hard for me k?haha...today weather is really beri shiok...cj even wore her hard rock sweater...tink she really luk lk a bear...haha...dunno if she is feeling better alrdy...but jus now did see her cheer up abit...
den we went to her hse n rot before gg town to fag....met wilson too~!hey wilson...help me wif my the tag box~!!haha...
k going to study alrdy...
to cj:cheer up~! =)
to sq:study hard...dun lazy and always watch tv ar...haha
to wilson:rem my tag box~!!

2003-06-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

gd morning~!slept very early last nite but woke up at 2am onli to know sj had patch wif "gone case"....haiz...cj i noe u very very sad now...i can feel yr pain cuz i haf gone thru all this before...u were the onli person dere for me when i was down tt time...so now i wun abandon u~!!!hehe....tt is wad brother are for...ritE?be strong....look towards the bright sight...sj dun wan u is her bu xin...how stupid of her to choose tt fucker instead of u...haiz..(~luv is really blind~)
why must love bring so much pain to everybody??i hate love...love sucks!really suck....it change everybody life totally....

2003-06-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

gd morning ppl...jus woke up...act woke up at ard 9+ but too tired so slp again..dunno why so tired...sorry cj yest i beri early slp so no see yr SOS sms...dunno wad happen...haiz...jus heard tt edgar they all lose $ on soccer...aiyo...dun bet la!!!not gd la...haha...k..gota study alrdy...today hope can study alcohol,carboxylic acid and carbonyl....and hopefully can do some math qn...haha...tata ppl..bye~!

2003-06-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

didn't study much today cuz went lido to watch ju-on with sq....the show sux!!!!really sux!!quite scary cuz the female ghost's face kinda distorted but the boy look so cute~!!!can't helping laughing when i saw how sq cover her eyes wif her bag,she realli luk damn cute~!(act sum parts of the show i also cover my eyes)
after the show we when town and walk abt...quite boring...cuz monday town is so empty!!!sorri sq if i bored u lor...this is the first time going out wif u..dun worry u didn't bored me...haha...
k gota study alrdy.....bye....

2003-06-23T12:11:00.000+08:00

98 degree-Invisible Man
mmm... oh oh oh yeeeaaah, u can't hardly wait to tell all ur friends
how his kisses taste sweet like wine
and how he always makes ur heart skip a beat every time he walks by
and if ur feeling down he'll pick u up,
he'll hold u close when ur making love
he everything you've been dreaming of, oh baby
I wish you'd look at me that way
ur beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling more then any words could say
but u don't even know I'm alive
baby to u, all I am, is the invisible man
ooh, u don't see me baby
u probably spend hours on the phone
talking about nothing at all
it doesn't matter what the conversation just as long as he calls
lost in a love so real and so sincere
and u wipe awaying all those tears
u face lights up whenever he appears
ohhhh... I wish u look at me that way
u beautiful eyes looking deep into mine (deep into mine)
telling more then any words could say
but I don't even know that I am alive
baby to u, all I am, is the invisible man
********** (lp version)
{u don't see me (x3)}
I see u all the time baby
hum, the way u look at him, I wish it was me sweet heart,
boy I wish that was me
but I guess I will never be
********** (lp version)
I wish you'd look at me that way
ur beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling more then any words could say
but u don't even know that I am alive
baby to u all I am is the invisible man
(repeat)
oh oh oh, oh baby, the invisible man
u don't see me girl
but I love u
yes I love u
the invisible man
oh oh oh oh yeah eeee yeah the invisible man
baby baby baby yeah... the invisible man

jus listen to this song on my mp3...kinda old song...but remind me of a gal....she luv this song alot...suddenly memories of between this gal and i,came back to me....i miss her alot..really alot....if time can turn back i will still choose to luv her again...
dun even noe haf the mood to study anot...tink she is also studying damn hard now..all the best to you for yr CT....

2003-06-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

jus came back home...study alkane,alkene and arene at lib jus now...and manage to help feng solved 2 redox qn..hehe...feng really working hard now...tink he will ger gd result...all the best to u brother!!!
cj came at ard 4pm...i saw a gal luking at me jus now...den she smiled at me..haha...but feng n cj dun wana believe me!!..haizx....but nvm anyway tt gal not gd luking :P
went "walk walk" at causeway pt...notice why i said walk walk?haha...of cuz is my dear brother cj wana see her xx la...haiz..think cj realli lk her alot...but jus receive a sms from cj saying tt xx is avoiding her...why why why?cj is such a gd guy...tink if xx will be damn xing fu if she is wif cj...cuz i believe cj will make a beri gd stead...cj dun tink too much...noe now u beri sad...no matter wad we will always support u...rem u still haf us...the battle haven began...haf more confidence in yrself...rem wad i told u at blk 3 jus now...
haiz...luv really sux...making ppl so sad~heartbreak~

2003-06-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

good morning ppl...wonder why i wake up so early on a sunday morning?haiz...cuz gg out to study ma..meeting piggy at wdl ltr to study...tt cj really funny...foreva so sensitive...haiz...tink sj not avoiding u la...kaoz eh...anyway hope to see u ltr k?rem yr pizza mission brother....keke :)

2003-06-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

haha...finally got a nice blogskin...all the stuff are up..but not really done with it yet...kk..so tired gona slp le...tml still haf to mit cj at 1045~!!!!!!argh~!!....nitenite to everyone out dere.....

2003-06-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

hehe saw 5566 on tv jus now...5566 rulez~!haha...tink sq must be damn happy after seeing dJ on tv jus now...met wil n cj to fag jus now...so relax...can study le...haha...k ppl tata...

2003-06-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

hihi...halo...everbody...haha..first time doing this kinda of stuff..dunno if it is okie anot..anyway feel free to gif me yr comment..enjoy yr days ppl and be happy!